We are that we might have joy.

March 04, 2012

Happiness is such a simple, complex thing.

Really, we make our own happiness. Things get in the way sometimes, but you just have to go around them and keeping making happiness.

So many things have been teaching me to make my own happiness lately. The past couple weeks, work has seemed more difficult than usual. In the past, busy shifts didn't mean bad shifts to me. But recently, customers have been more impatient, and I've been more flustered. I'm not sure what has changed, but I am sure that if I want to go back to loving my job, it's up to me to make that happen.

Since coming to BYU, I don't think I have ever been caught up on homework. I always have something to read, a paper to write, a test to take. It feels so overwhelming. Sometimes I let myself get pretty upset about it. And then sometimes I take a step back and remember that
This is my dreeeam! I'll never be perfect at going to BYU. I'll never know how to perfectly balance my time, finish all my homework, say all the right things, get everyone's order right at work.. and I don't need to. I need to enjoy my time here. It's already almost a quarter gone. I need to take a deep breath and be happy to be here.

"Generally speaking, the most miserable people I know are those who are obsessed with themselves; the happiest people I know are those who lose themselves in the service of others...By and large, I have come to see that if we complain about life, it is because we are thinking only of ourselves." - Gordon B. Hinckley

That sums it up. That's all there is to say.

Except that just for myself, I'm going to keep typing. But really, what he said is all that matters here.

I want to be like that! I wouldn't say I'm miserable, but I know how much happier I can be if I only choose to be. If I choose to forget myself and help others.

This is a good story:

Yesterday I was in the HBLL with my friend, Ashley. (texting my other friend, Ashley. miss you. call me. come to utah.) This really, really cute Taiwanese girl walked by our table and looked over at us a couple times. Finally, she walked right up to our table and asked us - in the most adorable broken English - if she could talk with us. She's studying English at BYU and needed to have conversations with native English speakers as part of an assignment. So of course we said yes.

She sat down and pulled out her notebook which had about a dozen pre-written questions inside. The assignment was to talk about sleeping and dreaming. She asked us what time we go to sleep, what time we wake up.. do we feel like we get enough sleep? what do we dream about, what do we like to dream about? all these simple questions were so difficult for her to communicate. She used a lot of hand gestures, and really watched us as we spoke. I can't explain how cute is was when she giggled because she didn't understand, or when she instantly became really worried that Ashley doesn't get enough sleep.

It was so nice to take a break from studying biology (always.) and help this girl. She was so brave to come up to us. She's so brave to be at BYU studying English!

It really did make me honestly happy to help her. I felt joy after she had left. I knew that she was really grateful we had taken the time to talk with her.

And that is why I love it here.
Now go out and make some happiness.

1 comment :

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You have inspired me to be happy right here in Charleston IL! Even if our children and grandchildren are a bazillion miles away... If you can do it, I can do it! Love You!

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