Original: I love this day. Updated: I'd rather not say.

September 25, 2012

This day had so much potential. And really, most of it was pretty great.

I woke up on time and got to class early. I forgot the notes I was allowed to use on my Book of Mormon quiz, but I got over it pretty quickly. A fire alarm let us out of Book of Mormon early and I went to the devotional with Dennis, Meg, and Carly.

It was one of the best Tuesday devotionals I've ever been to. The speaker was an accounting professor, possibly the most positive man I've ever encountered. He spoke about living a positive, optimistic life. He used stories about his children to teach us:

To understand that righteousness doesn't mean perfection.
To always keep trying.
To look to Heavenly Father in all that we do.
To find and remember the joy in our journey.

There was one more. I should have written them down. He kept my complete attention the entire hour and honestly made me want to be a better, more optimistic person.

As I was leaving the Marriott Center two freshman girls were walking behind me.
"Tuesdays are my fave. I love Social Dance, I love Book of Mormon, I love devotional!"
Me too, girls.

I went to do my isys homework in the computer lab, and it was way difficult. The TA was late, then wasn't much help to me personally. I pulled off a decent grade on my own, then found out later from our professor that the rest of our assignments will all be easier. Bueno.

Eventually I made my way to the Creamery for dinner. Because 50% off is too good to pass up some days. Plus I really needed to eat before I took my accounting test.

So.. that happened. That accounting test. I failed. Literally, internet. I don't know why I'm telling you this, but I failed my accounting test. I don't think I've ever been more upset about a test. It's the lowest grade I have ever ever gotten on one. I've been studying so much for this thing. I've done the readings, quizzes, Steven has been tutoring me, I cannot believe this just happened. So I rode my bike home in tears, which is way too bittersweet for me.

Isn't it funny though? Isn't it funny how that speaker this morning convinced me to be a more optimistic, hard working person, then this happened? It's kind of funny that I said countless prayers in my head today thanking my Heavenly Father for all the wonderful people in my life, the pretty weather, the mountains, how well school has been going so far. Then this happened and I'm going to go to sleep all upset, but I'll wake up tomorrow, smile or something, and keep going.

Because I'm still grateful for all those things. I'm still happy with how my life is going. This is one big stumbling block I'll have to somehow turn into a stepping stone.

President Uchtdorf once told us to refocus on what matters most. I've been trying to do that lately. It's been helping me a lot, and I don't think now is a good time to give up on it.

"Be grateful for those things that you have, be cheerful and happy.
and remember that you are a daughter of God."


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Erin, Steve Smith from the Champaign Stake now is a professor at BYU in accounting. I bet if you asked he might be willing to help with some tutoring and he lives about 5 minutes from campus with his family. There home number is 801-691-0782. If I remember correctly, he is not teaching any classes this semester, he is doing research. Give it a try and see if he can explain it in a way that makes sense to you.


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Thank You! I needed that lesson as well. I have so much to be grateful for; especially my family :) Somedays when I feel like I'm failing, I remind myself that we've raised 4 great kids! Nothing in this life is more important than that. Thanks for always making me smile!

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